Of things that came before…
Some things start way before it’s actually visible. And that happened with me, with my art and my path.
A little introduction to myself and the world around me, without getting way too specific yet: I’m from Venezuela, and my life revolved around waiting, waiting for somethings to happen, waiting cuz some other things just take time, and there is were I learned to be patient. Even when I didn’t want to wait, I just had to.
I’m 29 years old and I’ve been living in Spain for almost 3 years now, I still can’t believe it. But this wasn’t a decision I took just because wanted to, no, the life in Venezuela was very intense and hard, you might or might not have heard of it, but those details for another time. The thing is, for a few couple of years I already knew I had to leave, to where or when wasn’t sure yet, but had to leave for sure. All those years waiting to -leave- I was studying!!! I graduated from engineering in industrial design and did 4 of 5 years of the bachelor in music too (but I’ve been a musician for 15 years!! And still doing it)
I was super focused on what I had to do day by day, didn’t have much of a connection with the people around me for the same fact that I knew I had to leave. Also didn't think too much ahead and tried to stay as busy as I could, I started selling my art in 2019 and every single day, when I was not in classes or working, I was drawing. At that time I was studying the 2 careers, working some part time job at a shop to pay the engineering career, working and playing with the orchestra AND doing commissions. Yeeeah… I was kinda busy haha
The interesting part of all that added a bit more to the difficulty is that 60% of the time I didn’t have electricity or was walking cuz the public transport didn’t work… ajam!!! Well….. besides all the serious stuff I had some other save places, like videogames, music and gardening. All the time I had my headphones, so I couldn’t think too much of anything, taking care of my plants, always with my kitty Nami by my side, and trying to play video games I loved as long as my old laptop could run it hahaha
Today I look back, and it’s crazy how bad I felt for quite some time. How I had inside me such a big sadness, despair and even hatred. And how I was so close to quit everything, and give up, being honest that’s why I say I still can’t believe it haha how I actually survived those times, But here I am and all I want is to share those stories with you, some are fun, some are sad, some make no sense… And that’s why this space will be a very wide collage of me, all those things that inspire me, what makes me, me!!!
Cloudy sky from my kitchen, cooking waiting for the electricity to come back.
